What to do next.

I am torn in the new world order. I come from a semi privilege back ground or a very privileged back ground depending on who is reading this. I am mid tier middle class white Canadian. I have opportunities that lots don’t but really the one thing that sets my situation apart is how far I can fall. by this I mean if I make lots of mistakes finically or personally, I have both the finical support and the emotional support from my parents to weather most storms.

I have always been conflicted with my
situation. Why me but also why not me. I am marginally smart some apatite for
risk and some resources to chase a dream. Again, defining what is enough is got
to be paramount to life. living in the shadow of the next 3 months has to
become paramount. having goals and aspirations is fine but getting threw with a
stable state of mind is very important.

Again, wanting to monetize is just a means to be constant. having your bills paid is what frees you up to do the things you say are meaningful.